I made it to the second session.. yayyyy.. that being the only bright side to it.
If someone ever told you that all it takes to loose weight is disciple/commitment/diet changes/workout.. trust me.. they are just giving you the sweet version of it all.. It takes the ability to withstand a lotttt of freaking pain.. no one ever tells you that... and why should they?.. who would possibly want to sound like a sissy who can't handle pain...well, I really don't care what this sounds like.. but god!!!! it hurts...
In my mind, there are pictures rolling by, of all the times I carelessly ate.. hogged rather.. samosas, dosas, panner, parathas, ice creams, milkshakes, pizzas, beer pongs, shots.. and what not.. coming to think of it.. no wonder I have to work so much to loose it all.
I always felt shy (yes.. shy.. hard to believe huh?) going to a gym.. I kept telling myself that the "only" reason I wouldn't go to a gym is to save myself the embarrassment of working out with skinny sorority chicks. Well, if you are telling yourself the same thing.. haha.. welcome to the club.. but sorry to burst your bubble, its just plain bullshit... and honestly, you'll have to grow a pair to admit that to yourself.
So anyways, my second session was a huge reality check for me. It was shocking to see myself gasp for breath within seconds.. My fitness levels: ZERO!
Fitness apparently has nothing to do with how much you weigh, coz the saving grace for me last night was to see so-called skinny chicks also gasping for breath :D
I suddenly realized why the skinny ones work out so hard in a gym.. It has nothing to do with maintaining their weight, loosing it or gaining it.. Its all about trying to be fit (however cliche that might sound). You have to try it just once to understand it.
My plight as of now, is rather hilarious to the ears and eyes than it is to me.. Because my body suddenly had to wake up from its stagnant state and actually do something, its not really a happy camper. I can not begin to explain how it feels like. It takes a struggle for me to sit down and a bigger struggle to stand up. Every step i take, I can feel my muscles flex.. I came walking to work this morning, coz it was close to impossible for me to get into my car and drive. Funny part was when my boss (over 60yrs) offered to help me walk. Am I happy after day 2...No!! Am I going to Quit? HELL NOOO!
Aside all the cribbing and pain, I am glad to have taken the first step. I can see it now.. its not going to be easy.. its true what everyone said about bootcamp.. its not for the weak heart... but my desire to get better is stronger than my desire to make the pain go away (for now :) )..